You're not alone I grieved for 3 years as if it was yesterday, and it began to be once in a while after that , it's been six years now. N FYI all of this was happening while I've a bf who is extra handsome smart and all can't even compared to that bastard (my ex). Cry ur heart out n cry to sleep , tell someone and let it out, love ur self , search for love and it will slowly fade away.