Yo babygirl/ big bro Ur not alone in this roller coaster that only goes low. Over time ull learn to appreciate the small things in life and thats how u get through it, fight fight till the very end and take every little win u can get a u might not be optimistic about tomorrow but atleast look forward to see how thing turns out. This is my methods atleast and know that the world is a better place cuz ur in it Stay positive friend