I lost my dad 9 years ago, he got stabbed and he was strong enough to get himself home, i was home watching tv. I dont even know what i felt at that time i was 14 ...I'll tell you this back then i wasn't hurt as my mom did but when i grew up i feel so bad that sometimes i even cry when am alone i miss him everyday.. when i graduated from university i got good grades and all of that but only my mom was there 😞 ... I learned a lot from my life my mom is a strong women, i love her so much! This is life, we all gonna day at somepoint so don't think its your turn there is no point to it thinking like that , just live... who ever you live with be nice to them do everything you can to not regret it later, and remember this if it happens to one of your loved one you are not alone and stay strong