First thing is do not be hard on yourself. If you feel attached to him because you found him attractive, you really haven't done anything wrong. Our heart is designed to be infatuated by things we find attractive. Second thing is, let him know frankly that you aren't ready for a relationship, if you aren't ready for one. Also, lela neger, I think you don't want to dive in to a relationship, because you think it will end in a heartbreak or somewhere around that. Just because our generation has altered the meaning of relationship into holding hands for the first few days, texting day and night, then meselechachet and then get into a childish argument and feel broken for a while, doesn't mean you two have to do it like that. Talk to him, communicate with him etc. Sort out your thing together. And take risks. What is life without any, anyway? 🙂