I'm a masturbation and porn user. ☺️ I have never said that to anyone in my life. Ever ! But its true ever since puberty I can't seem to stop watching porn and jerking my cock everyday... Well not everyday... But still u get the point. Then at an early age I started watching porn and that helped I got turned on. And it was just jerking my self off to death after that... But every time I watched porn or jerked off I felt real bad about my self... I'm talking mind numbing depression and self loathing. And so many other things that made me a little anti social, and a little weird. ...🙄 ok! Fine ...super weird. And it just kept going on I couldn't stop the pain cause I couldn't stop the addiction it self. And then before I knew it it became my default setting. I was never alive, I was never active ....... I was a zombie in my own body I just moved but there was no pure happiness. For about a decade. Now you have to know I could never tell this to anyone not my parents not my friends nobody it just stayed with me for a very long time and it influenced me in such a drastic way at such an influential time ...my childhood and teenage years. But pain does bring strength ...somehow ... 🤔🤔 So I asked my self what's wrong with me ? And I'm I the only one? So I spoke to a few friends people online ... Teachers, doctors many many people and I found that literally almost everyone in my life almost had the same problem. As me! SHIT! I mean how can there be something this big and nobody ever ever talks about it? 😳😱😱 Plus I thought I was different and unique .... You guys just took that away from me... So if almost everyone was suffering why Haven't anyone tried to cure this problem. And I'm talking everyone girls guys your friends ....literally everyone ... I even saw my cat do it once it was so weird ....but kinda hot at the same time ..😄😄 wtf I'm I saying ...fuck! I digress... Moving on So why do I feel bad after masturbating? I asked and the problem was one of two things 1.I usually watch porn while I masturbate 2.I have wrong beliefs about masturbation that came from religion, people , society and the like.... So how I came to solve this problem is first I realized .... Masturbating is healthy! And natural and safe and fucking awesome and its 100% the right thing to do. But the problem was what I was watching while I did it.... Porn Now porn is wrong and you should never watch porn at all I know it sucks I love porn too but 50% of the depression and most other problems comes from that. So first stop watching porn. Never ever ever ever watch porn. And second I don't know how other people do this but u have to realize that there is nothing wrong with masturbating its safe and u should feel Happy after you do it....its like making love to a person u love and discovering your sexuality. YES you are a sexual being. Especially in our country sex is something so difficult to talk about and all of us have this mistaken belief that its wrong somehow but its not ... Its what our parents did to us and what our society did to us too... They thought us how to calculate for The value of "X" but no body sat down and told us what to do when we get horney. Third thing... Wait! I thought I said it was two things 🤔 .....o well... U need to find your limit... I personally do it like twice a month or so.... But u need to find what's best for u...it can be once a day or twice a week or three times a month Whatever works for u Just figure it out and stick to it. And I know I can't change your mind just cause I said so ....here are a few things that helped me...👇👇 A documentary called #Sticky-a self love story (2016) And it just kept going on I couldn't stop the pain cause I couldn't stop the addiction it self. And then before I knew it it became my default setting. I was never alive, I was never active ....... I was a zombie in my own body I just moved but there was no pure happiness. For about a decade.