My Brother/sister, u r not alive because u r supposed to do sth... u are alive because you ARE SUPPOSED to be ALIVE. You are meant to be living and enjoy what u have. Please try to be Optimistic... everything will look darker if you are wearing a black eyeglass, but that is not the reality. You have to remove ur dark glass in order to gazz the natural light around u and it's true colours. And yes things might look soooi dark and hopeless at times bt hey, you are very strong eshi! You have came this far. Do you want to be the man who have come this far, to come this far? NOOOO! Sometimes we have to walk more in order to reach the light in the end of the tunnel. Try to do some physical exercises! Esti try to go out in the morning and play football or sth with ur friends if u have, or jog around if u wana be alone. And if u r a believer, please go to church or mesjid! But no matter what, DON'T U DARE DO ANYTHING STUPID! UR FUTURE NEEDS YOU! I'll pray for you!