I feel like it was me who wrote the question. Except for the confidence part. I am 1.68 and 54 and 20. I am pretty small for the peers I have and I used to not have any confidence at all. And then at some point I realized that none of it actually really matters. What others see you as shouldn't be your cup of tea. Just do you and love yourself. If you have self love and self worth the rest will not affect how you value yourself and the more you value yourself, the less fucks you give to anyone who tries to convince you otherwise. And that eventually leads to being comfortable with what you are and increases your confidence. Your self-love must be stronger than your desire to be loved: If you're not happy now, there's no amount of friend, relationships, followers, positive social media comments, or Instagram likes that will change that. External validation isn't happiness - it's a hamster wheel. Validation is an inside job. Work on how you see yourself and the rest will come around.