I know i deserve hell but still cant seem to be okay with it and i feel like thats the only wrong thing thats going on in my life. If you are an orthodox you cant just be okay with it, how can you when you can work on yourself and repent and make an eternal life in heaven and making the one who created you happy with you. I know its easier said than done coz i talk all tuff but dont even move an inch to that life.