Yagatimal darling don't beat yourself up for it, I used to be like you, ofc I'm still even my Dad was a great father but weren't that great husband, It's a feeling that seems never goes away toward them, gin just esti feelingshn embrace argi you hate them fine gin eho else is saint right?, everyone yehone tifat alebet silezih stop looking for the 'perfect' guy ena just try to know them as a person megemeria start talking them as a person endewendiminet ena trust me that changes a lot of things to me then slowly u eyetewesh yimetal and yehone neger sitagegnibachew say to yourself who am I to judge, I would have done this if I were in his place, and this perceiving without judging mindset will be game changer