Stop waiting to feel ready or confident first that comes after you try and being scared is normal but avoiding everything will only keep you stuck

From how you described yourself i can tell you are pretty self aware and it has nothing to do with self-praise and you dont have to be very apologetic. Self awareness is the biggest step to master ones own self but even tho you know that, you are somehow stuck because all that is just a bit too hypothetical. Too much contemplating of what other might have to say has distorted your self image. Look, your true image is amazing. And i'm not gonna tell you dont listen to people and bla bla. That rarely works. You are way cooler than what you put out there and you know it. Here is the easiest and always workimg way to change that for good. Be a bit more open and expressive than you are right now..... your real image starts to show... there will be two groups of people... those who like you and those who dont... forget the ones who dont like you and keep the others close, the ones that like to hear ur perspectives, the ones that appreciate your point of views and takes and so on... you will definitely start to realize how beautiful u are. You might wonder, isnt that just hypocrisy self-deception and fake? Feeding only on positive feedback to fill your ego? Well, It's not!! Simply because you are downplayed by most people cuz most people can't simply keep up with your personality and they dont even get how amazing it is. And hence the only viable reaction would be alienating or weirding you out and keeping you in the shadow while they enjoy mediocrity. I'm not sure if that is what you were looking for but i definitely dont mind ranting.

Lmao, praising yourself, I see 😂 What nobody tells you is that who you are, your behavior, whether you're introverted, shy or highly inhibited is largely determined by your past experiences. You might've been bullied as a kid or gone through something similar. So you need to find something that positively reinforces the things you want to do. Maybe it's having a friend who encourages you to go out or do things outside your comfort zone by rewarding you with praise, reassurance or whatever works. If you're really skinny, try to fix that. Take care of your body. If you're overweight maybe lose some weight. Society itself will start to shape you to be more confident and slowly erode pessimism and fear of rejection. Don't be hard on yourself. Be patient and help yourself.

Engdi b txt enkuan yelelen confidence in person mamtat kebad nw eko 🤷‍♂🤷‍♂ Mndnw haters mnamn... ediya to get to the point yihe yanebebshw metshaf build yalaregew confidence b sw mikr aymetawm... meaning u have to get out of ur mind and start living in the real world... yezane u will learn people can be kind and cruel mnamn ena yihe loving urself mnamn demo bullshit nw... sw sra alebet sw halafinet alebet sw mederea mifelgebet bota ale yemn self love mnamn nw echi lij alrabatm meselegn alchegeratm meselegn koy atseram atamarm ende 🦾 there are harder things in life than having someone fall for u... ደርዘን በስሙኒ lehone sw demo yemn yihe yakl mechenek nw... look ur problem is u don't have real problem... 🤷‍♂ Go get urself a real problem and we will talk