You can't say I'm autistic since there're many in your family. Get diagnosis first, may be it's because you've ADHD and focusing on things that don't interest you or may be other cases like trauma. So first, know what’s the real problem.... With this state, it's not advised to start flirting and dating..... so focus on yourself, find out what the real problem is, die to imrove those things but don't be harsh on yourself for what people blame you through the process.... and also try to get near to your religion, your God.