Strict parent norosh kadegsh yihe mostly expected new , intimacy newr endehone subconsciously'm bihon programmed honual in ur mind ..but what u can do now is being true to urself ,I dont think u fear men ,i think u fear relationship ena emotional intimacy..thats more likely an avoidant attachement style . I think bednb ewekiw min endemiyasferash ena endet bihon kezi discomfort kes bekes mewtat endemtcheyi then for the man who wants u tell him what u want and how u feel ...kes belesh mekreb endehone metfelgiw minamn malet new..if he actually likes you he'll stay patient with you , ena the safer u feel the more it is going to be easy. You just need someone to makes u feel safe enough to be close to . Ena dont let anyone pressure you in to something you are uncomfortable in ...miyadametesh setagegni chinketu yitefal. Yene hasab yihe new ena hope it helps..