Me too bruh, i have been there 4 long time. I was the only person from my family who hate religious thing, why? Because everything wasn't making any sense for me as before. Why? Purpose. I can't extract any purpose from my religious activities. again Why? Wrong awareness. The awareness you are extracting from something is what gonna shape you, and your life, "Religious things wasn't never about me at all." It was about others perspective , society norm, and from fear of hell, and wasn't from awareness of "loving myself or caring 4 myself". I can't give u the right answer for your struggle but i assure you, it gonna be clear if you ask yourself "why" more often. Why you choose religion to heal urself? Why do i fear this and this? Why don't i fear this and this? why this feel more serous for me while it easy thing for others? Why i become this version of me, is it was consciously or unconsciously? Which event, scenario or ppl make the version i hate today? Believe me, if u answer those kinda questions so personally, the answer we get more clear.
Oct 16, 2025