When I was 12yr old, like 7 grade malet new I had majorrr crush(some might even call it love),I confess my feelings to her at the end of the yr with letter and after summer I never saw her again.they say she gone to USA or Canada idk but I lost her completely.i don't even know what she looks like now ,only memory of her when she was 12 and I still have feelings for her...am 23 now,does that make me paedophile 🤔?