Stick to one sub field, i recommend wede AI focus btareg but its just personal opinion. Then lear it bzu tools alu if you want roadmap you can check roadmap.sh, but its normal to feel like you've done nothing but dont let it make u weak. Just keep teaching urself regularly and consistently. By now you have realised that the normal carriculum is far behind the existing skill requirement. Internships are normal but dont limit yourself to that, lock in and teach yourself properly with sharp focus