My father was extremely abusive to my mother. Sidebedbat ena sisedbat, begulbetua sichawet eyayehu new yadekut. Not only her but after he cheated and married another he did the same to that woman. He was a woman hater. Betam setn ynkal, ysadebal, yatekal. Set lij endalewu hula yastewale almeselegnm because i was witnessing all that thinking, "so that's what it means to be women, and that's what a man is"...grew up trying to avoid men, safety always came first, bezalay sadg bzu setoch endenate endeminoru awekugn. So, Enesu yemadrsubet eseralehu, ke wendoch gar mnm aynet gngnunet yalegnm endinoregnm alfelgm...but recently I realized it went further than that. Actually, I'm becoming more like my father. I have an extreme disrespect for men and I loathe them. He himself got sick recently, I deliberately made it so that he got no help. I imagine doing things to men, pretty dehumanizing things. I know I'll do more too. I've become him and I don't hate it. Anyone who relates?