You're bad when you act upon it not when you think of it. Most of the things you think about, I said most not all, are not of your own wish and so you can't control it. But when you think about something and then you act it out, that's when you are labeled as good or bad. If you think about wanting to help ppl but then you don't, does that make you a good person? No, because you have only thought and didn't do it. But anyway, hints of jealousy are normal in any kind of relationships so don't think that you're the only one, just make sure that instead of bottling it try to heal it.