I'm basically an academic failure, i basically did very little to come out at first place in school. It was always easy and i think that's why i never took it seriously. I love science more than anything, but i never put effort into acquiring it. I outsourced my talent and never had to go an extra mile to do well. I'm often told that i'm very smart and fast learning but everything i know or can do came naturally. I never learned to put efforts into the things i do. And when things started to become extra hard i chose to quit instead of struggling because i never got used to it. I passed entrance without studying when only a small number passed, i got into AAU which i dropped out of because i was bored. I think i do deserve to be where i'm rn but i want to break this fucking hell of a cycle i'm in. I feel lost and i'm losing interest in almost everything. I'm not sure if i'm asking for advices, i'm probably looking for a new perspective that can alter my outlook on the world.