I need some honest advice because I've been struggling for a long time. About a year ago, I ended a relationship with someone I truly loved. Our relationship had become toxic, but another big reason was that I'm living outside my home country and I couldn't go back to marry her. I felt like I couldn't give her the future she deserved. Instead of telling her everything honestly, I made a terrible mistake. I told her that I had a new girlfriend because I thought it would make it easier for her to move on and not waste her time waiting for me. Looking back, I know that was the wrong thing to do, and I know it hurt her deeply. I regret it. Recently, I apologized to her. I wasn't trying to get back together,I just wanted to take responsibility for the pain I caused and say I was sorry. Our favorite number was 23 because we started our relationship on the 23rd, so that day still reminds me of her. The problem is that even after a year, I still think about her almost every day. I'm very l