I’ve always wanted to share everything with my family, to make them my everything, because they’re the only ones who love me even when I’m not perfect. But sometimes, I feel like they never learned how to love in a way that heals. Their love leaves me feeling insecure, and I wish I could meet my mom as a child, just to love her the way she needed, without any conditions. She never had that love, never learned how to love herself, so I can’t blame her for not teaching me how to manage my emotions. She gave me everything she could, even if it wasn’t enough to make me feel whole. she’s always tried to give me more than enough. She’s the kind of mother who brings me cake( yerasuan drsha yetm dgs bthed),and dinner ly tnsh mgb bcha kale ene eko tegbyalew yemtl, And now, If I told them my biggest fear which is" i'm terrified of losing my family before I can make them happy" They won’t understand this,They’ll say, 'Our dream is to see our children’s success, to see them have their own family' and I don’t even know if I want to marry at all...this fear is too heavy to share, so I carry it in silence
Feb 27, 2025