I understand your pain,coz i felt the same pain before. JUST 21 but thanks to God,I learned from this pains and now not to brag my mindset is at the same level with 30Years old Great Dude. 1. pls reduce the time you spent on Instagram and TikTok,This Guys on this platform they are faking it until they make it, and you are comparing you potential with this people False persona. 2.Stop Overthinking about what other people expecting from you in real life except some true one other people will start expect something from you when you achieve something,So you have potential, but don't overthink abt them coz they will not be there when you are down. 3.if you are feeling like you are not making any progress, I want you to use the principle i use just compare your present level with your past level. example: If you are kind of person who doesn't read Bible let say today you read 2 chapters see you have progress on your spiritual part of your life. don't forget that God is always there to remove obstacles and barriers from making progress and being better that yesterday, if you are feeling like you are facing the biggest problem you should laugh coz this is the smallest challenge given to you to make you stronger than yesterday,The Biggest problem is always resolved by God already before you face them. don't think abt suicide i will kick your face☺️ wish you the best brother/sister.