That is b.c there a deep rooted subconscious program in ur mind. I was like u when I was 23 all things which I touch changed into stone there was no money there was no friend I passed through very very difficult situation which are so unbelievable when I look back. at this time I start to ask why is this so on me why not on others, most of the time the idea of suicide and worthless ness come to me very often. my ground breaking history was started here, I dedicate 2 golden years to know about my self and to study my self. God introduced me so wonderful personal development teachers and classical books, I completely do what they told me. Every things start to change, I completely reprogram my subconscious mind, thanks to it's generative power I become earning 100,000 per month from scratch with out any degree only G-12 complement, enjoining life living in awesome apartment and a nice tucson car and I'm operating my own business from 0. all things become so amazing day by day because od change of my own consciousness. So my advice is, find someone who knows about mind and stick enough to him until u change.