Enem let me give you my humble opinion: I think the problem is the way you defined yourself. The thing is this, there are lots of people when you ask them, "who are you" their answer is, I am a doctor, I am an engineer, I'm a pilot, a millionaire, and bla bla. They have assigned themselves an external values. So, what's wrong with it? The very moment they are no longer those external values they assigned themselves, they are no longer happy and don't wanna live anymore. Let's say, that person can no longer be a pilot or a doctor or have lost it money and no longer a millionaire. They are no longer the way they defined themselves. Yanchim chgr yhe yimeslegnal. Earlier at some point in your life, who am I lemilew tyake "I am a beautiful women" blesh erasishn define yareksh yimeslegnal. And when you are no longer that "beautiful woman" you start to lose all your confidence and all the things you described above happened. The external values we assign to ourselves won't stay with us forever. So, my sister, try to redefine yourself. Change the values you assigned yourself. You are so much more than just another "beautiful woman"