Same here, every year I think about dropping out but I nvr had the strength. I might seriously do it this year tho I'm exhausted. At this point even looking at the compount makes me sick to my stomach. I hate it so much. This mindset won't help tho it made me lazy and careless. So decide whether you wanna stay or not. If you stay study as hard as possible if not leave and find another path. Mediocrity won't get you anywhere.