I know the feeling kelal ayhonm. Gn here is the deal, bzu gize negroch yemiyameltun yimeslen ena betam techakulen yegnan future yemiyabelash ngr enwesnale. What I understand from what you described is that you have your whole life ahead of yourself. mnm ngr yihun biyameltegns, bewala bikochegns blesh bcha atwesgni, take your time ena bedemb asbibet. If it is what you really want then take the chance, but if not just move on and live your life the way you want. Life always has something in store for us.