1. There is a thing called "projection". Whatever ur mom says it's not always meant towards u or just bcos of waht u did. I am sure most of the time she is just letting out the anger in her due to many reasons and many things happening this days. With living situation, the economy, the politics and all, everybody has an anger inside and we let it out on the ppl in our life. So when she yells at u or something it's not coz u r not good enogh or ur wrong doing.
2. I just want to control my life doesn't work at least for 1yr until u turn 18, but in Ethiopia as long as u live under their roof there is no such thing as my own life. Parents expect some manner from u.
3. Siblings always fight especially in this teenage yrs. There is always unfulfilled need which stores anger inside u. So fighting is normal to let that anger out. That doesn't mean u don't love each other.
4. When something happens or when u fight with them just pause for a moment and think abt what everybody in here said.
5. Get close to God. When u lose hope and all just think what he gave u. There r many who do not have a family, many who do not hv any body to yell at or even to be yelled at. Don't look up to ppl u think are better than u look down on ppl who do not hv what u hv.
4. U need psychological counseling. It will help u on ur anger issues and the addiction. Go to any health facility tell them honestly abt ur addiction and suicidal taughts they will refer u to the respective care center.
Be strong.
Jun 19, 2024