I recommend you to get therapy, but as u know its costy ena if its hard to afford that(400-600birr per week) read some self help books watch youtubes specialy dr. Mihret ( all these to know what you should do) Ena one thing abt depression is it needs continuous work( which is really hard to do while dealing with the mood swings that come with it) ena for that matter you need to pray so that God gives u the strength to heal and work on your self Ena plz dont be discouraged by ppl who says like “depression isn’t real” and you dont own any one the need to prove them you know your pain sleza dont give up you’ll get out of it as long as you keep on going