20f i felt like i couldn't even breath today cuz i was crying that hard ,felt like nothing , went to depression so much so itfeels normal nowadays, attempted alot,passed mywhole high school through hunger cuz we couldn't afford shit after he died ,saw my mom run for her life literally cuz my  so called father gets drunks and cheats and blames it on her ,couldn't see her suffer that much so i tried to let go of this world felt unfair to see her in that state ,i saw her lose herself ,when we went to uni to take matric i only took one cookies for 7 days and 500 birr god knows how igot that money becha freshmanyear same new i couldn't afford mytaxi so i begged ppl to help me and somedid I'm in the postion right now i dont have money at this point i am 20f btw eshi what should i do