Enem endeza negn idk if it's normal or not gn try to know ur safe place like things to do that makes you happy film, or book or music it can be anything gn don't push to be happy all the time mood swing can happen to and try to pray bedenb. U don't have to be normal with everyone u can't be bcz one day u will gonna blow when you do that when u get bored tell them u are enji don't pretend like everything is good it's not good for ur mental and if u don't want them to see u can go to church and u will get ur peace gn don't be hard on ur self its a phase everyone will go through u got this.