having so many things o do by urself and goals that r not dependant on value of people might come handy in such times Its good to have options tho... what i can tell u for sure is that in the end it doesn't really matter of u r focused only on the superficial aspects while dropping the important lessons as u moved along... a shitty life is as valuable as a more well put one... so don't pressure urself on trying to step on the right path u can't know for sure... take chances that u won't regret Makes sense?