Lemme tell you what I think: I have been on the same path as you are Ena there is ntg out there that would make you do that. You ain't gonna find a book , a motivation video or smt else that would make you work on yourself. You just have to start it otherwise you will waste your fucking whole life waiting for something magical to happen. Here is what you could do : - Workout daily - have a good diet and self hygiene -work hard on whatever your on even if it's scl -start networking with ppl -read self improvement books