Come on man you've the best drive that most people are lacking... It's cool to have an urge to make money(like the saying goes"make money or die trying")...let me tell you my history real quick... I was born in an average family, a little short hand for luxury...so I happened to be like you back then but I never stopped... I tried learning new skills( barbering, social media marketing, web development...you name it) then I started applying for jobs like crazy...around 150 jobs in the COVID alone(I've got accepted on some of them and made some decent money) tho it's not enough for my lifestyle... I kept grinding...alot of ups and downs til now...but now it's better at least I've a business which makes 600 to 700 a day(I know it's not that great but it's just part of the process) keep trying your best man