Wtf broo?? Who said life is all about relationship?? It sounds like you are feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. It's okay to feel this way, especially in the difficult current landscape that surrounds us. It can be helpful to move away from all-or-nothing thinking when it comes to relationships, and replace it with a healthier attitude that acknowledges our emotions but doesn't expect them to cause permanent change. Remind yourself that even though finding a relationship can be challenging at times, it doesn't mean that it's impossible and there is no one out there for you. In terms of managing your thoughts, start by focusing on what you can do right now. Are there things such as engaging in physical or creative activities, or developing new relationships with people who make you feel safe, that could help ground your feelings? Talking through these thoughts could also help; either with friends or family or if needed with a therapist or counselor. Also, grounding yourself in the present moment and reaching out for support from others can often be an effective way to work through the intensity of those intrusive thoughts and feelings.