I have ever loved only one girl...we used to sit together in 11th grade. We sat together the entire year. But before that, we weren't close...we used to say hi to each other and we know each other but we didn't talk that much. But we started to sit together in the beginning of the year of 11th grade. Then i began understanding what true connection feels like. Nobody ever listened to what i had to say at that time...nobody ever took me serious and talk to me...i used to feel like nobody cares...especially in that school. But she was different. She brought out the best in me. For the first time ever i felt loved. After a long time i felt like i belong where i was...i used to have problems of fitting anywhere i go, especially when it comes to school i used to struggle to find my place. But with her being there, i felt like i was exactly where i want to be. ...... we drifted apart. We became in different class in grade 12. Then we stop reaching out to each other......for the most part, it was my decision. I just decided that she deserves somebody much much better than me. I was a mess in high school and actually i am a mess even now. So she deserves more. And really i don't think my feelings would be reciprocated in any way...i felt like she just saw me as her normal best friend. We could have continued like that but i though i would get attached to her more and more....so i just decided to focus on my education and left her for someone better than me. Sooo i understood what love is because of her... if it were because of physical appearance, i would have loved her before. But before we started sitting together, i used to not thing her at all...but the more and more we talk, the more i fall in love...fall in love with who she is, not what she looks like.