I am so sorry about your health condition 🙏 I hope you miraculously recover from it.fr Tell him one more time, tell him that you are going through a difficult time...tell him that what you need right now is a friend not a boy friend ..tell him that he is being selfish and not caring about your condition at all. If he still acts suicidal ...tell his parents and leave it for them. Now is not the time to even think of this kind of stuff...focus on yourself 🙏 Sincerely ThatDude