Ya but still hasn't get over it.. I think it's because of my mom that I haven't end my life yet. I just couldn't do that to her, she would be devastated. But at some points I feel like things are getting better and I am doing great...but it is only a matter of time that I will get a reason to feel horrible. It is an endless suffocating loop. I always end up believing that my mom is the only reason I am doing all this non-sense stuff... I don't know what I would do if she is gone before me :(