I‘m 21, f, never had a bf or even went on a date. When I was 19 I made out with 2 random guys at the club. With the 2nd one we even made out in a hotel room, we did NOT have sex but he sucked my b**bs and we dry humped. I confessed to my Nisiha Abat twice but the feeling of shame just doesn’t go away. I‘m still a virgin so I decided to wait until marriage after what happened and marry by Korban one day God-willing (bc my Nisiha Abat said I can’t get married in Teklil anymore) but there’s this voice inside my head that constantly reminds me of what I’ve done and it makes me feel worthless, dirty even after almost 2 years. How can I finally let go? How will I ever explain this to my future bf / husband? How do I know God has truly forgiven me ? How can I forgive myself ?
Nov 03, 2022It's a good thing that you are regretting this it's not something you only feel most of us feel the same but the main thing is staying on your lane be emntesh tsegni. Peoples at your age are doing much worse. it's not something you should be emberesed or feel back about your self. dont let anyone come and change your mind trust me it's not worth it
Nov 04, 2022
