This is a sad reality that's faced by many youths. Don't beat yourself up brother, you are too young. You haven't even started living and please don't compare your beginning with someone else's ending. You can start from scratch and become whoever you want to become. Trust me. Sit down and think what you wanna achieve in life and where you picture yourself in 10 years and work towards that. Finding sth that pays will help you temporarily destruct yourself for a while but finding your vision and mission in life will permanently level up your mood and transform all that draining negative energy into an impulsive positive potential energy that will help you live your dream. We all have been there! It's not your fault! Besides, wherever you go whatever you do, let God guide you in every step of the way and you will reap million times more of what you sow than you would otherwise. Apply what I just said, come back and re-read this comment after three years and thank me then. Good luck brother! By: Anonymous 🎖 326 rep a few seconds ago