Idk if this will motivate you or not...but please know that this is not "mechereshaw seat"... you will realise that high school was super easy once you join college/university, both with regard to academic and nonacademic stuffs ... so first know that the hardest part of your education journey is yet to come ... and second off, study as if you are preparing yourself for university ... Thirdly, please see the bigger picture ...Have vision ... see yourself in 10 years if you are to do everything that you are supposed to do in the present .... don't see the exams you will pass or don't focus on the short term achievements or failures ... yes they are important ... but see the doctor, or engineer, or accountant, or any profession you would become ... Once you focus on the bigger picture, you will slowly attach reason and purpose to what you are doing and give passion to opportunities in front of you.... I believe purpose is about making each others lives better ...it is about service... so I would recommend you to make service your end goal... making yours and other people's lives better should be your goal/purpose ....becha in any way, try to make sense of what you are doing ... let everything you do be meaningful to you ... I hope this help ... Ayzon eshi.. stay strong!!