Thing is am so so so toxic to someone. We were talking and kinds had a thing. He lives aboard and me here. I never had intention of being with him first I was so so sweet for him then my bitchy personality comes in lol I trashed the shit out of him but he's still here he send money time to time I am not even broke I don't know why he do that. So when he was coming in a week I told him I didnt wanna meet him he got so mad and asked me a reason and I got nothing he wanted to come anyway but after all I insist if he ever comes here I will leave him for good and block him everywhere. He agreed not to come. Now am feeling so bad. I have this really cute face with big eyes which makes me look so innocent and a great shape all these can't compensate my evil personality. What should I do???