I‘m 21, never been in a relationship. I only kissed 2 random boys at the club when I was 19. With one guy we even made out in a hotel room (very long story). After it was over, I regret it so much. I never wanted to make out with those guys in the first place, it just happened and I couldn’t stand up for myself. I repented but I am still depressed until this day. The only lesson I learned from this is that I want to get married by church and I don’t EVER want to do such things again. I want to have a faithful relationship and wait until marriage with sex. I’m still a virgin and Ik that’s just bc God protected me that night. But am I being a hypocrite? Will my future bf ever accept me for what I did? Can I even ever forgive myself for what I did? How can I finally self-heal and let go?