Here goes the story... There was this girl with whom I had so much history. Starting from highschool, On-off relationships,and much more things. But then one day I was like 'we should not be doing this'. That and and some dummy stuff i did have hurt her. (Which by the way, guiltiness and regrets are killing me.)... All that, and eventually we end up things. I'll take the responsibility for the most part. After years i started approaching girls for intimacy and relationship. Here is the thing though: I, now, have realized that She's irreplaceable. (It's not that I missed her due to the quarantine, I want her back for real). What got me thinking is: 1)what if i mess again... The hurt and pain all over again... 2)I reached her. We talked some shallow things. But it seems she doesn't want trust me anymore... I really love her, and Its very hard letting it go. Shall I tell her all and expect her say... Or wait till trust is built again(if it's going to...)