First change your name "Depressed".. start by avoiding negative things

bro get medical support. Mental illness is very debilitating if you couldn't manage it. Consult a psychiatrist. It can be treated using medication and psychotherapy. You can use this book 'How to Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety' if you want a work book. I recommend consulting a psychiatrist.

Drink alchol at least 3x in month it will get u going defret yastmerehal no more than that