ጥያቄው ለወንዶች ነው Have you been abused by an older friend since childhood ... like bribing you with some portion of food for 'sexual' contact .. say it you are 3-4 and he is 5-7 ? I had that experience and had bad feelings remembering it and anxiety of judgement from others bc of mannerism of defense mechanism. It exacerbated when I quarreled with some guys at campus and they conspired to nag me by calling me shit. Rather than that am doing good, not interested in men but women sexually, had 4 successful shots at 'em, each per year, planning to have a gf.