I'm tired of going back to him we don't have anything he's not my boyfriend but we have sex then he asks me to be in relationship but I'm not ready for that cuz I'm so toxic so I don't wanna to stress myself & I don't want to lose him with relation conflicts i was always finding way to make him hate me bc we're so d/nt even if we fall in love we can't be together but Idk how I'm always going back I tell him to not to call or text then if we meet I don't know what happen I do everything he say 😭 please i don't wanna lose my time I'm ignoring every guy bc of him i want him to leave me but tell me how ?