I think I'm still in it. I have never been trully happy as long as I remember but I don't have the urge to kill myself even though sometimes the thoughts come. I haven't tried any drugs or alchol so I'm lucky that way. I think of my family and friends but realize they can't do nothing cause I never trully associate with them. I always want to be alone every single time. This is not an over exaggeration. I never truly stay happy for more than a few minutes. I have not overcome it but I have gone this long by the sake of my other personality where I try to show myself in some public place with friends. I use that persona to let them not over obsess on how I'm doing and change their overall view on me. Also tv shows like euphoria or music like the new Brockhampton Album or podcasts make me think life is enteresting.