I hear you and I understand. You want someone to walk life with holding hands not dragging his and Behaviors you see now imply that he's not the kinda guy who could do the holding-hands- walking. apparently sex and Children won't change a man and you want to live the rest of your life with him because you had sex with him and you want him to be your first and last. You're afraid that if he's not a good mate then you'll be doing this all over again. Nothing will change a man but if anything can maybe that thing is love. Lovin' someone is being naked Enough for him/her to see our weak spot and take a shoot at it and hoping to God he/she wouldn't. So can he do that for you? Can he really tell you the reasons to why he's yhe way he is? If so then he loves you. I hope you'll live a happy life dear, you deserve it! You took a leap and hope to God you don't fall, that you would fly. And don't lose hope if this guy isn't the one. The one will find you!