Hey Unihorse 🦄 Hide my Identity I need to vent Bear with me...I was young and energetic highschool girl who aspires for a bright future. I fall for a guy who was three years older than me. He was my first love...we dated for seven months, those were happy times. All of a sudden he kept asking me to have sex...I liked him, like a lot. I agreed, we went to a room and it was painful first time experience. I lost my virginity. When I wake up from a nap, he was already dressed. He said he wanted to talk abt our future. I was excited, but he crushed my excitement saying that..."my parents wouldn't aprove, if I marry from other religion. " he was a Muslim, I Orthodox Christian. Just like that, he left me in the room, crying🥺....years passed. I still didn't recover from that traumatic experience. I got in to college, the stress of my studies coupled with my PTSD triggered a swinging mood disorder. I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder now. When I am off meds, I get too high...when I am on my meds I get too low, and get suicidal. How is this in any way fair? How do I get myself back? Am 25 now...and don't know the solution. Only if I could rewind that day, Only if I could undo that moment, Only if I could be little bit more carefull, ...🥲 Vent Here